i've been through that before...

I've gone through so many tests! My hair looks a lot worse than before. My eyebags and wrinkles are very obvious... but still... I'm happy to say that it's all over! Everything in prelims has come to an end, and now I am going to start anew. Yes! It's a new beginning and I am not to fail!!! I shouldn't! Anyway, that's Maya... the girl who can beat TWO little girls at the same time. Hehehehe...
Something very funny and very scary happened this evening... SSSSSSSSShhhh carlo... don't ever mention anything cutie boy.. haha. You too Rachelle and Maya... It's my deepest darkest secret that I never want to open!!!
After a long week of pain and frustration, I'm facing another week of true happiness... as I make my dreams come true! Wishy wishy wishy wishy wish wish wish... But as you know, wishes are not to be told or shared unless they finally come true.
SO those were the highlights of my day today... I really don't want to mention my math test about probabilities... or taxonomy... or theology.... pero nasabi ko na. But there's one thing that kept on coming back to my mind... I had this conversation with JP:

JP Abrina: haha
JP Abrina: sana ito na yun
JP Abrina: kasi may chance na atik lang lahat
JP Abrina: tapos too late na para bumalik
JP Abrina: haaaay
nemia asiong: sus
nemia asiong: wag mong isipin ang bukas
nemia asiong: isipin natin ang ngayon!
nemia asiong: kung pano tayo magiging masaya!
JP Abrina: oo nga noh
JP Abrina: ako ba ang nagsabi niyan?
nemia asiong: hindi ko alam
nemia asiong: pero ganun naman talaga dapat diba?
nemia asiong: heheh
JP Abrina: oo nga
JP Abrina: tsssssssssss
JP Abrina: sige sige
JP Abrina: maging masaya tayo ngayon
JP Abrina: kung iiyak man tayo
JP Abrina: hayaan nating dumating yun
JP Abrina: at pagkatapos ng pagiyak
nemia asiong: oo
JP Abrina: may rainbow na!
nemia asiong: hahaha
nemia asiong: tama!!!
nemia asiong: go GIRL!
nemia asiong: hahaha
JP Abrina: hahah
JP Abrina: GO GURL!

Haaaay... Friends do share the same spirit!
And so, everyday can be something special. Everyday is important. We should always find a chance for us to smile and be glad... no matter how big those trials may be... no matter how painful it is that we feel... no matter how desperate we are... ;) SIGURO... sa bawat struggle natin sa buhay... all we'd have to think is...

It's time to move on... ;)

It's cramming time again...

four hours na natulog ang maganda... ngek.

Nagsastart ang human dev't sa fertilization where ang sperm at oocyte mag-meet. Haploid ito sila na cells. Gametogenesis ang tawag sa process ng pagdevelop ng highly specialized cells... ang oocyte nga at sperm. Sa girl- oogenesis, sa boy- spermatogenesis. Sa puberty na maggrow ang spermatogonium, maglaki siya para maging primary spermatocyte--largest germcell yan sa seminferous tubules. Tapos undergo siya ng meiosis I para mahati sa dawala... ang tawag na sa kanila kay secondary spermatocyte, tapos meiosis II maging four na spermatid... tapos magdevelop ang apat into sperms. Ung girl naman, malaking oogonium na maging primary oocyte, arrested siya sa prophase I diplotene stage. Pag naform ang primary oocyte, merong covering siya, ang tawag zona pellucida, flattened cell nga pala ung follicular cells na magsurround sa kanya. Tapos pagpuberty, or before ovulation, magdevelop siya into secondary oocyte, present na ang antrum---ung cavity, and then cuboidal na dapat ang mga follicular cells, more than one layer na dapat yan sila. Tapos during ovulation... secret...

Hayyy... start pa lang yan ah... di pa ako excited matapos... tsk tsk. Good luck ulit sa aking brain... and sa aking eyes... Good luck! ;(

TOINK TOINK volleyball!

Volleyball... there's fun in playing volleyball as it includes the RELEASING of EMOTIONS. As I hit the ball, I tend to be so excited, and so I couldn't control my self from shouting. Playing such sport is one of the dreams I've always had. I hope someday I'd be good. Someday... I hope...

I'm happy I have completed the doubles and singles for our preliminary exam in PE. I was able to handle 40 hits... I really don't know how you call that. Anyway... I was glad that I really didn't have a hard time doing it. And so, I want to thank the people, who have always been there, for having faith in me... hehe...

Although I'm having quite a problem with serving the ball, I'm still excited until the next time I hit the ball again. I won't stop practicing until I get it right. Yes, I am a frustrated player. I really want to learn!!!

AND YES... I ALMOST DIDN'T STOP... pati sa gabi, naglalaro pa rin!
AND NOW... I am home... alone... and I'm sleepy...

This week is sooooooooo I-DON'T -KNOW... I don't know what to do, what to answer, what to say... as time seems to be running too fast that I just end up getting confused! CONFUSED! I don't even want to know the results of my tests... really... except for PE. Now I still have to study Embryology and Literature... I DON'T KNOW where to START!

Before my adventure ends, let me tell the conversation we, Maya and I, had with the taxi driver. As we got inside the cab, Maya told him to pass by the KANTO JAIL... He said, "Dili diay ko..." Hey hey hey... I wondered why he said that, then he told me, "Daghan gyud allergic sa mga ... init ug ulo(un ata)... naguba dayon ang nawong." He said that it was me. SORRY... I thought he was a bad driver because I almost didn't like the way he talked. But then, I was wrong with my impression, he wasn't bad after all. He talked about his life, that he didn't want a life like what he is having right now. He said he had higher dreams, better goals in life, it's just sad that he ended up becoming a taxi driver. Then, "sana kunin na lang ako ni LORD." He told us such line. He was a happy person but then he thinks like that? Is it that his life really is miserable? He had a family but he wanted God to take him already.. I mean, he got two kids... young young kids. It's really true... PEOPLE who joke a lot, laugh most of the time, take things not so seriously, are people who have something to tell inside. Anyway, as I got out... I just told him.."OKEY KA MANONG!" Then he gave me a smile.
It's still amazing to think that people whom you never knew in your life would come your way and share their stories with you as if that they really trust you like a friend. Masayang isipin...
I'm glad God created each one with a HEART, so that one could feel not only his own joys and struggles in life, but also that of other individuals. Even though, you never met each other, at some point, you are able to start a conversation, because with your heart, you are able to listen to what that person wanted to say. Oh diba.. nagre-reflect na pala ako. Bakit magsasalita ang taong yan tungkol sa buhay nya? Kaya... para sigurong... LUKSO... LUKSO NG PUSO. Heheh... The heart really has a lot of roles to play. Kaya... kahit papano... let's give this HEART the responsibilities as we live in this life.... in making choices.. in sharing a life with others. ;)

And so... to end this post I got an extra feature:
HAPPY BIRHTDAY KUYA RHON.... advance... hihi
I wish you the best! I wish you good life... as a drummer, as a nurse, as a handsome person (ngi), and as a wonderful brother!!! DOn't lose your way with each passing day hah!!! Murag kanta! 23 pa pala birthday nya...

Kaya kaya kaya... ang dami daming pang mga bagay na magpapaEXCITE sayo! Ang dami dami pang bagay na magbibigay sayo ng tuwa!!! Kahit madaming pagkakamali at sad na feelings! Ang dami dami pa ring bumbuhay sa bawat araw mo!!! ANG DAMI DAMI! SO... hwag kang mag-alala... marami pa ring dapat abangan! Abangan!

Very Very Sorry ;(

It's 3:30 in our clock.... and I woke up at the wrong place. Tsk tsk.... Once again, I'm not on my bed.
I slept without saying goodnight... tsk tsk.
I also woke up realizing that I had left some unfinished business as I journeyed through my dreams... ;)... Tsk tsk.
My sleeping habit isn't really helping. haaaahy...

Anyway, I am glad that it's Friday! I'm thankful I'm done with my sufferings--- TAXO exams + Theology. I really don't want to think about the outcome of the tests that I took. It might just give me the headache. Bahala na muna... Basta Friday ngayon--- walang Embryology! ;)

Pause...

Ang dami dami dami daming gagawin.... kung iisipin, sobrang wala sa tamang oras itong post ko. Pero gusto ko lang siyang isingit.
I still have to do our Physics assignment, my Embryology report, and I still have to study for prelims moving exam (lab)..
TONIGHT...
I decided to go to the garage to get a marker in the office and visit tweety as well. Bronsky asked me to buy him coke. After buying... I walked along the street. It was quiet and cold, then I looked up in the big dark sky. I saw the stars... wow... they never fail to amaze me. They do make me happy.
So... why don't we pause for even 5 minutes and look up! Nothing wrong's going to happen if you would, at least we could just recognize that although the world is so unfair... although you could get line of 7 in embryology tests... God still does great things in our lives--- just as the stars shine above, and so do we as long as we put Him in our hearts!
See? I'm feeling so sleepy right now and my thoughts may not be that organized.... but all I want to say is... relax... take a deep breath... and thank GOD! ;)
sige dami ko pang gagawin.. see you late prens!

JUMONG... walang koneksyon

Wala na naman akong maisusulat as usual... My mind is always blank.

I hated 'PROAMNION' sooooooooooooo much that it destroyed my morning. It's so frustrating when you're looking for something the whole night and still you couldn't find anything! I was so angry to PROAMNION and so with HENSEN's node and SUBCEPHALIC POCKET (let's include all of the other questions)! I felt so upset that I wept for about two minutes. It's so hurtful to be aware that you're 100% unsure with your answers.... so helpless... I look so haggard. I looked like a corpse bride up to now. I couldn't sleep well, I would wake up at dawn just to finish things. This is not what I really wished for. I really wanted school, but I didn't wish to get big eyebags and experience crying moments of being so stressed out. I just want to break down and rest... I'm just glad I was able to bring back a life in this lifeless body... my day didn't end that bad. It wasn't bad after all. ;)

TEST... I just don't want to say anything when it comes to mentioning this word! We had a review for our embryology moving exam and just like before, I didn't know what to say. Blank blank blank. Then we had a test in Filipino.. without studying... and I actually looked like a dumb kid.... I had no idea about the answers. Good luck to my brain.

So to sum it all up, I am doing a GREAT JOB in my studies!!!! GREAT JOB!!! Tsk tsk... GREAT JOB sa akong mata.

But no matter how disappointing these tests could be, I don't really feel any frustration at all, I mean frustrated not in a sense that I want to give up already. As I have always been saying, there are still a lot of things waiting. Things that won't stab your heart anymore. Things that will always make you remember that life is so sweet! That's what I should thank God for. These things...

Talking about life... aside from realizing that I am a very unlucky person... like losing my pin once again, facing heavy rains at night, losing other things, and other unlucky events that had happened in my life... I learned to always treasure and take care of my precious life. Last Thursday, I almos got hit by a taxi there in Jacinto. I was just one step (or less) close to the rushing vehicle. One step more and I would've been rushed to the hospital. That's the second time I had my near-death experience. The first one also happened the past week, I almost fell down the stairs of the older building. I was just about to reply to sharon's question and maybe I slipped and almost looked like HUMPY DUMPY... My reply to sharon was oo... then turned to.. ooooooOOOOOOOOOooooooo!!!! My heart really jumped. And so, all I wanted to share is that... life is so easy to end.... that's why, we should all cherish every moment and take care of our lives.

I would like to congratulate my arms, my legs, my hips and thighs for not giving up as we all unite to do the 'double' in volleyball. ANg sakit nila chong... Hahaha... Thanks to Antonio Tagami and Rani Valles for helping me make it through!

Anyway... I'm still happy for this day... as long as embryology and filipino tests are not yet bothering me... ;)

Mukhang wala akong naisulat ano... wala gyud...

VUVY VRI... (JULY THREE)

I just finished my homework in Physics and I'm ready to start studying Embryology... but I guess I'm taking a nap first. I'm really sleepy. Haaay... I think rainy days cause people to get sleepy and passive. It's not that I hate the rain, but usually, when the rain pours, I tend to get sad or silent.
I'm really really really tired. I'm tired of thinking about the things I must do tonight... tomorrow... I just wish I would be given ONE whole day to relax, enjoy... be the happiest and most positive person in the whole world... (atik atik lang) Tsk tsk... I feel like a haggard corpse bride again. I thought I have moved on but I was wrong.... heheh... ganyan talaga sa buhay.