The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow...

I was early this morning to study for the midterm exam for Embryology. I found Renz and Brip studying by the coffee tables. And so, I sat with them and joined them in their quest for Embryology. Then came Sharon. Few moments later, Sharon asked Brip why she didn't wear black. Instead, she was wearing peach (I think) stripes and a blackbelt. Then Brip replied that it's her pangluksa... She prepared herself to another sad event that she felt she was about to face this day. Bad event would mean bagsak or mababa... I think. I couldn't really tell the exact words she said but it went something like: "Para kahit disappointed ako... maganda pa rin ako... may blush on pa..."
Well, I'm amazed that Brip still looks at the brighter side even though she feels disappointed. Go Brip!
Sus... kung sa bawat failure siguro sa buhay kapalit ay kagandahan... ang ganda ganda ko na talaga siguro. Hihi.... ;)
The truth is, I could not define the exact feeling I am having right now. My heart just feels so heavy. Although at some point I could still share some laughs with my friends, joke to my parents, conversation to other people, I couldn't deny the fact that I failed. I failed not only my subject, my mom and dad, but myself. Although the result is not yet there, but my mind wouldn't stop telling me that I'm really about to fail, which I don't really want to accept. I am very very sad. I want to cry, but I already shed my tears as soon as I realized that that was it. Still, I want to cry. Everytime I try to remember such disappointment, my heart really beats so slow, then I begin thinking about my parent's reaction if they would know it. I'm not even sure if I could bring things back to normal again.
Haaaay....But Rani says, "Let's hope for the best!"
Bye... ; (