i feel a different feeling

do you know what it feels like when you'd want to go back to a particular moment in your life and could've done things right? I'm feeling that right now. i'm not sure of the decisions i make... but there really are moments that i could've taken such chances... chances that whether taken or not would still change a part of you. i wish it would come back. though i won't be able to come back to my past, i wish it will in the future. still, I am hoping that the right star would come for me, where i'd feel what i've been wanting to feel ever since i started wishing for it. yes, this paragraph is really confusing because as i have always been, i always get confused. ;(

haaay... happy birthday mama dearest. ;)