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It is very sad to think that those events that I don't expect to happen, those that I really am afraid of, at one part of this life would come in a series. I am starting to feel so stressed out that I couldn't keep myself from crying. Whenever stressful things happen, I would really want to burst it all out into tears, the simplest way of feeling less heavy inside. I feel so cursed for everything bad that happened to me the past few days. I am really really sad at this point. I need to take things slowly and lightly. I just don't know how. I wish a chocolate bar could make me feel better. I wish an oreo cookie and freshmilk would make me say that life is still sweet even if it is difficult.(My mom told me that it's not right for an eighteen year old lady to cry at shallow things, but then I still feel that it's really deep.)

I'm tired but I mustn't stop.
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Broken Heart

To all those people whom I have hurt, I am deeply... sorry. So many things have changed right now and the world seemed to turn against me. I am sorry if I turned out to be bad to you. I feel so sick. Maybe this would somehow lessen the heavy feelings I have inside. This may seem silly or embarrassing, but I am really really sorry. I wouldn't want to hurt anyone. It's only that I am not able to make good decisions. Sorry if you have expected so much from me but in the end I wasn't able to give it back. I never want to become a bad person. I just want to be happy. But maybe life doesn't really have to be all about happiness and victories. Sometimes, I have to fall, bang my head on the wall, or wake up from the best dreams I have had and face my nightmares. Sometimes I have to realize the real point of why I am here in this big world. Though every moment, I really feel so hurt, but I got to experience such to be strong, strong enough for the future struggles I am to face. This may be just a training for me. I must learn. Sorry if I get to be stone hearted, hard headed, or stubborn. Sorry if I was disrespectful. Sorry if I gave you stressful moments. Sorry for making you upset. Sorry for all our misunderstandings. YOu may be one person I have hurt so badly, that's why I'm really sorry.
I hope that someday, you'd be able to feel what I am saying here. To all those people who have shown love yet I have hurt, a million times... SORRY. I don't know if I could ever explain things for you to understand.

Thank you.
;{

i feel a different feeling

do you know what it feels like when you'd want to go back to a particular moment in your life and could've done things right? I'm feeling that right now. i'm not sure of the decisions i make... but there really are moments that i could've taken such chances... chances that whether taken or not would still change a part of you. i wish it would come back. though i won't be able to come back to my past, i wish it will in the future. still, I am hoping that the right star would come for me, where i'd feel what i've been wanting to feel ever since i started wishing for it. yes, this paragraph is really confusing because as i have always been, i always get confused. ;(

haaay... happy birthday mama dearest. ;)

SENTENCE

I just thank God that I am blessed. ;)

Who could it be?

Someone voted.... who could it be?... Mmmm.... Life is really mysterious... misteryous.... mysteirous...? hahahah. misterious? Basta.

Octobus...

October 13. I'm celebrating for my ribbon-cutting session. I just got a new blog http://nemiascomicbook.blogspot.com/! But I'm not moving out guys. Wala lang... naisip ko lang... para mabago naman paminsan minsan. But I'd still post here. You see, this is the original and my ever first blogger aside from my friendster blog before. SO I'll always end up posting my dayt to day stories here...
Anyway...
This afternoon... I found a kitten being ran over by a big car. Guess who's the driver... my brother... guess who's inside the car... ME. Tsk tsk.. I really hate seeing animals getting hurt. I hate seeing animals struggling for air... to breathe... to live... ;(
I was able to finally talk to my bestfriend after more or less two long years. Shiela... That's her name. She was my bestfriend in elementary, from third grade to sixth! And I hope that up to now... we still have a special place in each other's heart. Yeah... a lot of things have changed... We're like almost 18 years old already!!! When we were just... like...nine years old long long time ago! See the difference? Shiela had been a big part of my life because as I've said, she was my bestfriend for four years. We're neighbors and I remember those times when we'd watch our favorite cartoon shows every afternoon at their house. ;) I missed those times! We were so young... we'd even cook yema... we'd play at the big field at the back of their house (it's a school property) We'd catch dragonflies... grasshoppers... play cards.... jackstone... cook yema... etc. Haaaay... I remember the best times we had watching detective conan and magic knights rayearth,... FUSHIGI YUGI too.

'Make new friens but keep the old.'

Anyway the second...

I envy those who get to swim at the beach... Yes, I know, I can't help getting jealous about it. I haven't gotten to the beach this year and even last year, except that night at insular hotel... I didn't actually swim... der, I might get kidnapped by shokoys! EEeek! Hahahah. Well, I just smelled the aroma of the sea and felt the blowing wind... only up to that. Haaay... I wonder if I could still get to swim in the big blue sea... someday. ;)

MALDITA

and so... I thought I was cinderella... but then... I realized... I was not... ;(

ahmm

how many days to go?... I don't know... I don't know what's happening in the world! I hope... that when that special day comes... I'd be happy. At least... be happy... ;(

let me sleep someday...

F a dt b ost'mhs... Ig rllray.hnorei

TO be continued

My friendster page says 13 friends viewed me from Oct. 1.
So what happened this week? This is the only time I could post something long again. Yes, I believe I have not been my normal self the past few days. On second thought, who would be? Would you still act normal when you're having a hard time dealing with piles and piles of worries. The week hasn't been that joyful and worth cherishing, but on the other side, there were still cool things that made the world look beautiful to me.
As I said from my last post, I wore my uniform when it was supposed to be a wash day. Like der! Who the heck would wear uniform on wash days? Well, the answer would be... ME. Okay, I swear I didn't intend to wear one just to call everybody's attention. I say it's a late-reaction syndrome. Everything was normal when I was fixing my things and preparing myself for school. I really didn't think of getting casual clothes from my closet. I was even thinking of my speech for the last day of embryology lecture while I was wearing my uniform. I never thought that I was making a big mistake. It took me maybe 15 minutes to realize that I am really T_ _ _A. I came to school with my head bowing. I cried as I got so frustrated. Just think of it? Wednesdays have been one of the special days for students, I mean. This day has been special to me, because it doesn't bore your week wearing uniform. Everybody was wondering and some would even ask why I am in my uniform.Those that I don't even talk to would even create a conversation asking me... naka-uniform man lagi ka? I have no reason to tell I just forgot. While I was walking around the campus, I began realizing that I was the only on.... I think ha... I think I"M THE ONLY ONE in the big school who was wearing uniform. On the other hand, come to think of it... IT'S A NEW WORLD RECORD... The only girl who wore a uniform on that particular wash day!!! See? I must celebrate! I just made a record, now if someone wants to break it, then he/she must wear one twice! Let's see... hihihi. I'm just trying to make this embarrassing moment something wonderful to remember.
The dark sky was flashing at every moment last Wednesday night. But it's wonderful when you look above and smile. Instead of getting scared... just get scared... a little... but think as if God is taking pictures of you. That time I thought He was because I was wearing my uniform!!! Hahahah...
Oh... I became the emcee on the last day of embryology celebration I was talking about. Hahaaha... I cried when my teacher sang this beautiful song. I hosted the show and I wasn't even prepared! I didn't know what to say... I'd just say YES! But it was a cool experience leaving a memory for the last session.
Friday... I had my talumpati... let's forget about my embryology test.Then we had our play... LIVE! Nakaka-nervous! We were all thinking of what to do... Hehehe... Good thing was we were able to push it through! Torvald was good, though he forgot his lines, he was able to reply and act well!! Go archie! We got ninety... not bad pare!!! Wooohoooh...
Now, we had our group exam.. I don't want to talk about my lab reports...
Things I've learned?
Now I have my rule no. 01, make a things-do-list and put first things first!!!!
Mmmm... kung may mga kidlat sa ating life at nagfaflash... instead of getting scared, smile !...na parang pinipictyuran ka... oh diba?!!! Naks.
So... I'm starting my rule no. 01 today, if I'm not able to follow, punishments will be done. mmmm....

putol

Guess what happened to me today? I woke up at about 4:30 in the morning and I started studying. I finished my work at about 7:30 and my brother took a bath, so I had to wait. I was told to do the speaking for this day in embryology, since it's our last day. I was seriously thinking about what I should say. I was wearing my uniform while making my speech in my mind. My brother asked me to download a song and so I did. I rode a jeepney to school. On the way, I fell asleep. When I woke up, we were already passing RMC school. Suddenly, something flashed in my mind and my heart stopped. I realized.... WASH DAY PALA NGAYON! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayksssss.... I couldn't react and I just gave it a smile. ---To be continued.

I do believe in wishes

I'm worried. I'm confused. I don't know what to do or think first. There are soooooooooooo many things that have to be done in soooooooooooooooooooo little time. Should this be my fault? I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo stressed out. I feel so weak. I don't even want to list down all those things... madeds na ako. I'm scared, really really scared. The curse I had in midterms might still be effective up to now. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.... Kung pwede lang matulog ng isang araw.

too much to express...

happy but sad ;(

1-1-7-1

PE DAY NAMIN. I did the last shot sa basketball game. Di siya na-shoot, pero okey lang. At least I tried. I'm happy to have received a bronze medal... dahil siguro sa brave souls na nagvolunteer to join. Mejo nakakahiya un pare dahil pinapalibutan ka ng maraming maraming schoolmates!
Then we went to PENONG's... I just wanted to celebrate. Reason? There's no enough reason. I just wanted to have fun and celebrate. Celebrate lang gud, atik atik. Then we went to timezone. I had the chance to drive again (DAYTONA) and do some freakin' dance (DANCE FREAKS). The thing was that I don't know if I got some special powers tonight, but I was sooooooo surprised as I was able to reach up to 1171 combos!!!! 1171 sa dance freaks chong!!! I know it's really hard to believe but it's so true, and I'm very happy. I am soooooooo satisfied. Parang I have accomplished that dream everytime I play dancefreaks.... from the time I started learning how to play which was during my third year in highschool... somehow it makes 30 percent of my life complete. Haaay... ;)

Then we sang. Anjan na naman ang pagkaDIVA... hahaha...

A lot of things that have to be done are waiting ahead, but I'm so thankful that somehow, I'm able to find life as something really wonderful even just for one day. ;)

I had this conversation with my dad and I told him that I'm so tired. He replied something like:
"Don't make your life complicated. Enjoy and be happy with simpler things. Be joyful with every little thing that would come your way. Sometimes, it is in little things that we find true happiness. "

Oonga naman. Chocolate nga nakakapagpasaya na. It's time to appreciate small good things!

FRIDAY

MOVIE REVIEW:
I just watched FINAL DESTINATION 3. It's a very very sad story. Everybody died.
The movie begins with the roller coaster ride. I think I know how it feels out there where you'd never feel safe. Tsk tsk... better think first before taking a ride.

I almost fell from the chair kanina... I got out of balance.... Tsk tsk... this is the third time. First from the stairs, second--- almost got hit by a car. ANd now... final destination? Sus... I just thank God for keeping me safe---- and also the ones that I love..

We had our play... and I don't want to say anything.

BUBBLE GANG!

WARNING...

SOMEONE IS DECIPHERING MY CODES... TSK TSK... INTRUDERS ALERT. ;/

i wish....

I just woke up from a wonderful sleep. It's 12:45. I woke up because I thought I really needed to wake up this early. Working on lab reports in embryology takes time and much much effort. Then I'd realize that the report would not be passed tomorrow. Wooooh. Tsk tsk. Napahawak ako sa bewang ko nang malaman ko....

Anyway, I checked if there's something's new on my friendster page. Then I found this horoscope:
'Get to the bottom of why people are smiling -- you'll love solving the mystery.' After reading it, I smiled and raised my eyebrow! Unsa ka diha?! Sugo ko nimo? Tagaan pa ko nimog problema nganong nagangisi ang mga tao. Hihi... Let me "SOLVE" that mystery when I finish SOLVING my PROBS...

I got a lot to think about. I don't even know how to start or if it still possible that I could do it all. I'm a little sad to know that I'm not able to accomplish some goals in my life, yet I still try to be happy. All I can say is, whatever is happening to me right now, just let the world do what it wants to do. Bahala siya. ;)

Anyway, I did catch a falling leaf. I didn't expect I could. This is the third leaf I caught and I think I wasted the other two. I lost the first one, and the other one dried and got torn apart. I really don't know the rules on wishing through a falling leaf. Do you earn your wish by catching it or by keeping it? If you lost it, can you still wish 'cause you knew you caught one or.... the leaf has to be there to make your wish come true...? I don't know.. But let's see... ; ,


Happy Birthday Rachelle!!!

• I really did something wrong today. I want to say sorry na lang... ;(
• d dalmiiyang Aaling u erop mkphirapig iamagl.

BETTER DAYS...

I got to the top of the building facing our school.... for the first time!!!

It was wonderful. ;)

KEEP SWIMMING

Ang mga masasayang bagay dito sa mundo... dumadaan lang sa ating mga kamay... kaya't hangga't nariyan pa, wag mong bibitawan. Bigyan mo ng pansin. Alagaan mo nang mabuti. Dahil baka matulad ka sakin... nawalan ng G TECH! Nahigh-blood na naman ako kanina.

HOW MANY DAYS TO GO?

Ahahay.... Life is too beautiful to look at.
We ate kwek2x this evening and I remembered our days during the first sem when we were still freshmen students. I was SIXTEEN years old then.... and NOW I'm turning 18!!! Haaay... I wish life was that simple as before. Although things could be a little hard but I was able to carry everything. Now... I don't know.
Everytime I remember my teacher in Filipino, she's like my grade in Embryology. She makes me feel bad and sad. I am so hurt. She's too young to teach college students. It's really unfair. Okay, I'm really really mean and I'm sorry, but I just couldn't stay quiet about it. Haaaay.... Tumaas ang dugo ko for about 5 minutes. ;(
I don't want to think of my grades. I don't want to think of whatever result I would get. I'm not excited and I'm absolutely scared! I'm tired of thinking about my problems and feeling so down. I just need guidance.... Hmmmp... HAKUNA MATATA!
I'm putting myself to the green zone... which for me would mean... the GO-zone. Hahaha... Just keep on working. Work it!
Oonga pala... I got near the Mayor kaninang hapon. Nagkasalubong kami and it took me about 3o seconds to realize that it was the Mayor. Hihi.... For the first time in my life did I meet mr. Mayor. Cool!

I still have things to do and I love it! I love taxo, I love stat... I love everything!!! Sana...

JED R.

Time is so important.
I have this classmate named Jed and I've there's one thing I really like about this girl. Everytime we get to have a moment to talk, she's very nice and polite. She would always seem to be very positive as if she's able to face all the stressful moments of being a bio student. I am really amazed with her outlook in life. That's the reason why I admire her so much. She's almost to good to be true. I'm glad that I was able to get that one-in-a-million chance of spending a part of my life with such a great person like her.
And so, I got this wonderful thought from Jed. She said that even though we get to fail in our studies, we should still be greatful (Malipayon). When you fail a subject, you can still repeat it or have a retake. On the other hand, the time you spent weeping and grieving about your bad grades cannot be relived again. I mean, it has already passed, which means you've wasted a part of your life with all your sorrows and heartaches instead of spending it gracefully and filled with happiness. So, just be malipayon!

ALADDIN: Do you trust me?
JASMINE: What?
ALADDIN: I said, do you trust me?
JASMINE: Yes!
ALADDIN: Then jump!

"Rocks have no fears but then they still sink..."

In times like this, all you have to say is go!go!go!

SANA

Hahaahay.... Dapat mahimbing akong natutulog ngayon. Dapat nananaginip ako ng mga magagandang bagay. Pero meron pa palang embryology moving exam tapos may report palang ipapasa. Haaay... Kung sana... ;( Pero nakakapagtataka, nagising ko ang sarili ko nang hindi tumutunog ang alarm clock, naramdaman ko lang. Magaling, magaling, magaling. Haaaaaaaaaaaay.... Gusto ko pang matulog. zzzzZZZzzzz....

Buntong-hininga... ;(

'balloons... they never fail to make someone smile.'

mga dagok na aking hinarap kahapon... nabulasot ako... ;(

siya nga pala, muntik na namang umulan kanina... ay umulan nga... sandali...

BENCH

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NA JUD!!!

Kahit na bumagsak ako sa math long test kanina... Happy Birthday pa rin! Hihihi.... ;(

Sana di kasing kumplikado ng drawings sa taxo ang buhay... buhay...

SO what's the SIch?

I realized.. so many things have changed.
I'm having pimple attacks.
How many days to go before my birthday?
Happy Birthday Kuya Mark (Advance) You're the BASSt! September 11
I caught a falling leaf last Saturday, but I lost it. I wasn't even able to make a wish.
So many many many things to do...
So many things to worry about....
So many things to think of...
I need a hand... ;(

Thank you... a million times... ;)

I cried in our lit class, but the teacher wasn't there yet. I got confused and shocked because of JP, Marcus, and the ZOMBIE... Mahirap pag nalilito ka tapos sigaw ka ng sigaw.

I know that in life, there's no such thing as 'RESTART', you just can't escape all those things that gave you the heartaches and headaches. You have to get over them... although it's not as fast as how we want it to be, we painfully have to pass through these hardships slowly... but surely. I always want to tell myself to KEEP MOVING. I got this from Dori, the fish that easily forgets in FINDING NEMO, and she was saying "KEEP SWIMMING, KEEP SWIMMING" many many times. So as for me, I'll just have to keep moving, keep moving... Always try to push through. I always believed that there's always something to look forward in the future. There's always a reward for every hardship that you carried all the way. Let's just keep on hanging on.

Time to go back to the real world... Thank you for reading. ;)

Ang INgay ng Girl sa ABS pag 1 am na...

Umulan kanina... nang malakas na malakas. Pati ang palda ko napaangat. Tsktsk. Tapos bigla na lang namimicture. Sus na lang... Baha pa talaga... Kung di ba naman ako ganun kasuwerte... sa oras na nasa labas na ako ng pinto ng office para magpaalam at umuwi, bigla na lang... ssssssshhhhjjjjjjshhhhhhshjjjjjjjj.... umulan ng umulan.... Bumili ako ng oreo dahil gutom na ako... Paglabas ko ng NCX palakas ng palakas... Napadpad ako sa taksi na airconditioned. Haaay... Nakarating ako sa aming garahe. Sumabay ako kay tatay pauwi ng bahay. Habang naglalakad kami, akala ko tapos na, pero nagsisimula na naman. Mahal siguro ako ng ulan... kasi saka siya pumapatak pag nasa labas ako... Pero at least, nakapaglakad kami ng tatay ko pagkatapos ng maraming araw na di kami nagkausap. At least, nagkasama kami kahit sandali. Si tweety naman, parang nasisiraan pag nakikita ako. Ang gulo at ang kulit. Nakakasira ba ako ng ulo? Hihihi... atik lang...
Mmmmm.... binilang ko kung ilang araw na lang bago ang birthday ko... ewan ko kung tama ah... meron akong 68 days para gawin na ang lahat bago ako maging ganap na babae..hihih.... plano ko nga sana na magkaroon ng 13-day program para sa aking sarili. 13 days bago ang araw ng aking birthday dapat nakagawa ako ng 13 good things sa aking listahan. Oh diba.. naghahanap lang ako ng masayang gagawin... excited na ako. ;)

Lately

----------------------------------------------------------------------------end.... ;(

Smile like Monalisa ;)

Hooooooh.... Katakot... thanks Kuya Red!

Oh well, it's time to move on and leave all those heartaches behind.... LEAVE IT!

The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow...

I was early this morning to study for the midterm exam for Embryology. I found Renz and Brip studying by the coffee tables. And so, I sat with them and joined them in their quest for Embryology. Then came Sharon. Few moments later, Sharon asked Brip why she didn't wear black. Instead, she was wearing peach (I think) stripes and a blackbelt. Then Brip replied that it's her pangluksa... She prepared herself to another sad event that she felt she was about to face this day. Bad event would mean bagsak or mababa... I think. I couldn't really tell the exact words she said but it went something like: "Para kahit disappointed ako... maganda pa rin ako... may blush on pa..."
Well, I'm amazed that Brip still looks at the brighter side even though she feels disappointed. Go Brip!
Sus... kung sa bawat failure siguro sa buhay kapalit ay kagandahan... ang ganda ganda ko na talaga siguro. Hihi.... ;)
The truth is, I could not define the exact feeling I am having right now. My heart just feels so heavy. Although at some point I could still share some laughs with my friends, joke to my parents, conversation to other people, I couldn't deny the fact that I failed. I failed not only my subject, my mom and dad, but myself. Although the result is not yet there, but my mind wouldn't stop telling me that I'm really about to fail, which I don't really want to accept. I am very very sad. I want to cry, but I already shed my tears as soon as I realized that that was it. Still, I want to cry. Everytime I try to remember such disappointment, my heart really beats so slow, then I begin thinking about my parent's reaction if they would know it. I'm not even sure if I could bring things back to normal again.
Haaaay....But Rani says, "Let's hope for the best!"
Bye... ; (

TO ONE SPECIAL FRIEND I TREASURE THE MOST!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY RAQUEL AGUSTIN!

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Valligatore

Before anything else, I have a video I'd like to share. My brothers got this alligator toy when I was still in my 2nd grade. They used this in their exhibit in school and thenthey just brought it home. This alligator is really amazing. It really looks so old and broken but wow, it still works! How does it work? Just press the teeth of the alligator and be careful as you might press the tooth that will make the alligator bite you. Yeah... this one (in the video) did hurt.



Anyway, I got this uncomfortable feeling about my midterm grade in TAXONOMY... I feel that there is 75% chance that I'm going to get a grade below 82. I don't know. I'm really bothered because I didn't answer the lab reports well, and I didn't do good in the moving exam. I feel that my 86 would fall down to a grade I never wished. Hahahay....
As it has always been said, "Always follow your heart in everything that you do," but it seems that my heart is not functioning well anymore. Something is wrong with me.
I'm really a bad girl. I feel I did something that is absolutely not right.
The moon was red, although now, it looks really bright, brighter than before. It's walking. I mean, it's moving. Now that's what you call, "moonwalk". Yaks.... Corniks.
I just wish that I could make a good path for my life. That everything will go to its right place. I pray that I could still bring a smile with each day. No matter how hard the world may seem to be, I could still get on top of it and say.... I'm PRETTY! Hehehe. Top of the world....
After taxo, embryology awaits. It's time for... STUDYING and STUDYING. I wish memorizing is as good as eating an oreo cookie!
Bilhan nyo ko ng oreo beh...It would really make my heart happy. ;) Hihi!

Nanonood ako ng movie kanina ba... tapos naiyak ako. Yaks... Pero naramdaman ko nga talaga... eew. hahaha.
Nagising ako 3:15 na ng hapon. Tsk tsk.
I realized that there are a lot of things I must do! I am cramming again and ...that's so cool! ;(
Anyway... I never run out of problems. There's never a day that I don't encounter struggles. Like now, I am worrying about the moving exam tomorrow. I am also worrying about my ID. For some reason, I forgot to give the ball back to the pe office so I wasn't able to get my ID. See how complicated life is? It shouldn't be happening but it would still happen!
I have a lot of things to do. Hindi muna ako matutulog...
---to be continued---

;! A Poem for....

"I feel weak.
My legs are shaking.
My head is aching.
My heart is jumping.
I feel sick."

...me. I call that 5-line poem, "THE ART OF 3-5-5-5-3"
It's 12:42 am, and I'm the only one who's awake.
I still have to study for our Physics Exam. Physics...
I just hope that I could get through all the tasks and the things that must be done. I pray that I would stay strong as I go through each day. Life is wonderful, and I know it is. I just need strength and.... power to withstand all the forces of evil...? I need to be positive and relaxed. I need guidance. There are a lot of things to be happy for so I should not fail to smile everyday. Yes, I'm a little sad, but...it's okay...
I have to go. I still have to study for the test. Thanks for reading or thanks for visiting. ;*

TAKSONOMI

It was too late when I found out that we will be having a long test tomorrow. I never knew that... not until my mind started asking, "May long test na naman kaya?" Haaay... Fortunately, I did make the right choice of asking my classmate--- and YES, there really is a big test. And so, as usual.... CRAM CRAM CRAM!
So now, I'm trying to feel the power of the Bryophytes. I'm trying to relate to their lives... their life cycle... I am still at the beginning of my journey through Kingdom Plantae, I'm still on the FIRST land plants...

I really want to share the events that occured the past week... next time na lang. ;)

Woohoooh... GO GO GO , GO MIGHTY NEMIA! ;*

aaaahhhhh.... ;(

I'm about to tell my stories but I am so hurt. It feels like I stabbed my own heart. ;(
Let me cry.... bukas na lang... ;(

Droopy

2:05 in our clock.

I just finished my kalasag work! Whew... That wasn't easy, but I'm happy I was able to make it!

Anyway, I am feeling so sleepy right now but somehow I would just want to update my blog. It looked old!!!
So I'm back to "corpsebride feeling" again. mmmm.. After being informed of my grades for Prelims... I got a little stressed... and more depressed. Who wouldn't be if you're getting an 83 in Filipino. FILIPINO?!My Embryology Lab grade is even higher... 84. Tsk tsk. I really need adjustments... so far, I find myself listening to the discussion and taking notes seriously. I must be... this time.

So.... I really have nothing to say, I'm just giving myself a moment to rest after such a long day, so now I am going to sleep. Good night! ;)

(That was fast...;))

Wake Up! ;|

Kakagising lang... tulog lang nang tulog... walang nang ibang ginawa kundi matulog... tsk tsk....

To start, I have something to say in my mind...in a "jumbled" language...

" Ibut it'shan ge you a certhatainty... ce, c a chan to deal w ope ce... not avaI hreadyyou'reith t."

Remember when I said... It's time to move on...? I realized... it's hard to move on. I really have to strive harder and push myself more as I make everything in my school-life work... because something really wrong happened. I often say "Bahala na"... but it seemed that I lost my luck this time, which means... at some point, I must be sure... somehow certain that the results are good. So now, I have to give all the powers Ieft in my body.

*Although for a week... I felt like I was Alice in Wonderland... but then it's time to move on. ;)

To end this post, I'd like to share this song I heard in the Wonderland. Cool... and sweet... 'The Last Time...."

i've been through that before...

I've gone through so many tests! My hair looks a lot worse than before. My eyebags and wrinkles are very obvious... but still... I'm happy to say that it's all over! Everything in prelims has come to an end, and now I am going to start anew. Yes! It's a new beginning and I am not to fail!!! I shouldn't! Anyway, that's Maya... the girl who can beat TWO little girls at the same time. Hehehehe...
Something very funny and very scary happened this evening... SSSSSSSSShhhh carlo... don't ever mention anything cutie boy.. haha. You too Rachelle and Maya... It's my deepest darkest secret that I never want to open!!!
After a long week of pain and frustration, I'm facing another week of true happiness... as I make my dreams come true! Wishy wishy wishy wishy wish wish wish... But as you know, wishes are not to be told or shared unless they finally come true.
SO those were the highlights of my day today... I really don't want to mention my math test about probabilities... or taxonomy... or theology.... pero nasabi ko na. But there's one thing that kept on coming back to my mind... I had this conversation with JP:

JP Abrina: haha
JP Abrina: sana ito na yun
JP Abrina: kasi may chance na atik lang lahat
JP Abrina: tapos too late na para bumalik
JP Abrina: haaaay
nemia asiong: sus
nemia asiong: wag mong isipin ang bukas
nemia asiong: isipin natin ang ngayon!
nemia asiong: kung pano tayo magiging masaya!
JP Abrina: oo nga noh
JP Abrina: ako ba ang nagsabi niyan?
nemia asiong: hindi ko alam
nemia asiong: pero ganun naman talaga dapat diba?
nemia asiong: heheh
JP Abrina: oo nga
JP Abrina: tsssssssssss
JP Abrina: sige sige
JP Abrina: maging masaya tayo ngayon
JP Abrina: kung iiyak man tayo
JP Abrina: hayaan nating dumating yun
JP Abrina: at pagkatapos ng pagiyak
nemia asiong: oo
JP Abrina: may rainbow na!
nemia asiong: hahaha
nemia asiong: tama!!!
nemia asiong: go GIRL!
nemia asiong: hahaha
JP Abrina: hahah
JP Abrina: GO GURL!

Haaaay... Friends do share the same spirit!
And so, everyday can be something special. Everyday is important. We should always find a chance for us to smile and be glad... no matter how big those trials may be... no matter how painful it is that we feel... no matter how desperate we are... ;) SIGURO... sa bawat struggle natin sa buhay... all we'd have to think is...

It's time to move on... ;)

It's cramming time again...

four hours na natulog ang maganda... ngek.

Nagsastart ang human dev't sa fertilization where ang sperm at oocyte mag-meet. Haploid ito sila na cells. Gametogenesis ang tawag sa process ng pagdevelop ng highly specialized cells... ang oocyte nga at sperm. Sa girl- oogenesis, sa boy- spermatogenesis. Sa puberty na maggrow ang spermatogonium, maglaki siya para maging primary spermatocyte--largest germcell yan sa seminferous tubules. Tapos undergo siya ng meiosis I para mahati sa dawala... ang tawag na sa kanila kay secondary spermatocyte, tapos meiosis II maging four na spermatid... tapos magdevelop ang apat into sperms. Ung girl naman, malaking oogonium na maging primary oocyte, arrested siya sa prophase I diplotene stage. Pag naform ang primary oocyte, merong covering siya, ang tawag zona pellucida, flattened cell nga pala ung follicular cells na magsurround sa kanya. Tapos pagpuberty, or before ovulation, magdevelop siya into secondary oocyte, present na ang antrum---ung cavity, and then cuboidal na dapat ang mga follicular cells, more than one layer na dapat yan sila. Tapos during ovulation... secret...

Hayyy... start pa lang yan ah... di pa ako excited matapos... tsk tsk. Good luck ulit sa aking brain... and sa aking eyes... Good luck! ;(

TOINK TOINK volleyball!

Volleyball... there's fun in playing volleyball as it includes the RELEASING of EMOTIONS. As I hit the ball, I tend to be so excited, and so I couldn't control my self from shouting. Playing such sport is one of the dreams I've always had. I hope someday I'd be good. Someday... I hope...

I'm happy I have completed the doubles and singles for our preliminary exam in PE. I was able to handle 40 hits... I really don't know how you call that. Anyway... I was glad that I really didn't have a hard time doing it. And so, I want to thank the people, who have always been there, for having faith in me... hehe...

Although I'm having quite a problem with serving the ball, I'm still excited until the next time I hit the ball again. I won't stop practicing until I get it right. Yes, I am a frustrated player. I really want to learn!!!

AND YES... I ALMOST DIDN'T STOP... pati sa gabi, naglalaro pa rin!
AND NOW... I am home... alone... and I'm sleepy...

This week is sooooooooo I-DON'T -KNOW... I don't know what to do, what to answer, what to say... as time seems to be running too fast that I just end up getting confused! CONFUSED! I don't even want to know the results of my tests... really... except for PE. Now I still have to study Embryology and Literature... I DON'T KNOW where to START!

Before my adventure ends, let me tell the conversation we, Maya and I, had with the taxi driver. As we got inside the cab, Maya told him to pass by the KANTO JAIL... He said, "Dili diay ko..." Hey hey hey... I wondered why he said that, then he told me, "Daghan gyud allergic sa mga ... init ug ulo(un ata)... naguba dayon ang nawong." He said that it was me. SORRY... I thought he was a bad driver because I almost didn't like the way he talked. But then, I was wrong with my impression, he wasn't bad after all. He talked about his life, that he didn't want a life like what he is having right now. He said he had higher dreams, better goals in life, it's just sad that he ended up becoming a taxi driver. Then, "sana kunin na lang ako ni LORD." He told us such line. He was a happy person but then he thinks like that? Is it that his life really is miserable? He had a family but he wanted God to take him already.. I mean, he got two kids... young young kids. It's really true... PEOPLE who joke a lot, laugh most of the time, take things not so seriously, are people who have something to tell inside. Anyway, as I got out... I just told him.."OKEY KA MANONG!" Then he gave me a smile.
It's still amazing to think that people whom you never knew in your life would come your way and share their stories with you as if that they really trust you like a friend. Masayang isipin...
I'm glad God created each one with a HEART, so that one could feel not only his own joys and struggles in life, but also that of other individuals. Even though, you never met each other, at some point, you are able to start a conversation, because with your heart, you are able to listen to what that person wanted to say. Oh diba.. nagre-reflect na pala ako. Bakit magsasalita ang taong yan tungkol sa buhay nya? Kaya... para sigurong... LUKSO... LUKSO NG PUSO. Heheh... The heart really has a lot of roles to play. Kaya... kahit papano... let's give this HEART the responsibilities as we live in this life.... in making choices.. in sharing a life with others. ;)

And so... to end this post I got an extra feature:
HAPPY BIRHTDAY KUYA RHON.... advance... hihi
I wish you the best! I wish you good life... as a drummer, as a nurse, as a handsome person (ngi), and as a wonderful brother!!! DOn't lose your way with each passing day hah!!! Murag kanta! 23 pa pala birthday nya...

Kaya kaya kaya... ang dami daming pang mga bagay na magpapaEXCITE sayo! Ang dami dami pang bagay na magbibigay sayo ng tuwa!!! Kahit madaming pagkakamali at sad na feelings! Ang dami dami pa ring bumbuhay sa bawat araw mo!!! ANG DAMI DAMI! SO... hwag kang mag-alala... marami pa ring dapat abangan! Abangan!

Very Very Sorry ;(

It's 3:30 in our clock.... and I woke up at the wrong place. Tsk tsk.... Once again, I'm not on my bed.
I slept without saying goodnight... tsk tsk.
I also woke up realizing that I had left some unfinished business as I journeyed through my dreams... ;)... Tsk tsk.
My sleeping habit isn't really helping. haaaahy...

Anyway, I am glad that it's Friday! I'm thankful I'm done with my sufferings--- TAXO exams + Theology. I really don't want to think about the outcome of the tests that I took. It might just give me the headache. Bahala na muna... Basta Friday ngayon--- walang Embryology! ;)

Pause...

Ang dami dami dami daming gagawin.... kung iisipin, sobrang wala sa tamang oras itong post ko. Pero gusto ko lang siyang isingit.
I still have to do our Physics assignment, my Embryology report, and I still have to study for prelims moving exam (lab)..
TONIGHT...
I decided to go to the garage to get a marker in the office and visit tweety as well. Bronsky asked me to buy him coke. After buying... I walked along the street. It was quiet and cold, then I looked up in the big dark sky. I saw the stars... wow... they never fail to amaze me. They do make me happy.
So... why don't we pause for even 5 minutes and look up! Nothing wrong's going to happen if you would, at least we could just recognize that although the world is so unfair... although you could get line of 7 in embryology tests... God still does great things in our lives--- just as the stars shine above, and so do we as long as we put Him in our hearts!
See? I'm feeling so sleepy right now and my thoughts may not be that organized.... but all I want to say is... relax... take a deep breath... and thank GOD! ;)
sige dami ko pang gagawin.. see you late prens!

JUMONG... walang koneksyon

Wala na naman akong maisusulat as usual... My mind is always blank.

I hated 'PROAMNION' sooooooooooooo much that it destroyed my morning. It's so frustrating when you're looking for something the whole night and still you couldn't find anything! I was so angry to PROAMNION and so with HENSEN's node and SUBCEPHALIC POCKET (let's include all of the other questions)! I felt so upset that I wept for about two minutes. It's so hurtful to be aware that you're 100% unsure with your answers.... so helpless... I look so haggard. I looked like a corpse bride up to now. I couldn't sleep well, I would wake up at dawn just to finish things. This is not what I really wished for. I really wanted school, but I didn't wish to get big eyebags and experience crying moments of being so stressed out. I just want to break down and rest... I'm just glad I was able to bring back a life in this lifeless body... my day didn't end that bad. It wasn't bad after all. ;)

TEST... I just don't want to say anything when it comes to mentioning this word! We had a review for our embryology moving exam and just like before, I didn't know what to say. Blank blank blank. Then we had a test in Filipino.. without studying... and I actually looked like a dumb kid.... I had no idea about the answers. Good luck to my brain.

So to sum it all up, I am doing a GREAT JOB in my studies!!!! GREAT JOB!!! Tsk tsk... GREAT JOB sa akong mata.

But no matter how disappointing these tests could be, I don't really feel any frustration at all, I mean frustrated not in a sense that I want to give up already. As I have always been saying, there are still a lot of things waiting. Things that won't stab your heart anymore. Things that will always make you remember that life is so sweet! That's what I should thank God for. These things...

Talking about life... aside from realizing that I am a very unlucky person... like losing my pin once again, facing heavy rains at night, losing other things, and other unlucky events that had happened in my life... I learned to always treasure and take care of my precious life. Last Thursday, I almos got hit by a taxi there in Jacinto. I was just one step (or less) close to the rushing vehicle. One step more and I would've been rushed to the hospital. That's the second time I had my near-death experience. The first one also happened the past week, I almost fell down the stairs of the older building. I was just about to reply to sharon's question and maybe I slipped and almost looked like HUMPY DUMPY... My reply to sharon was oo... then turned to.. ooooooOOOOOOOOOooooooo!!!! My heart really jumped. And so, all I wanted to share is that... life is so easy to end.... that's why, we should all cherish every moment and take care of our lives.

I would like to congratulate my arms, my legs, my hips and thighs for not giving up as we all unite to do the 'double' in volleyball. ANg sakit nila chong... Hahaha... Thanks to Antonio Tagami and Rani Valles for helping me make it through!

Anyway... I'm still happy for this day... as long as embryology and filipino tests are not yet bothering me... ;)

Mukhang wala akong naisulat ano... wala gyud...

VUVY VRI... (JULY THREE)

I just finished my homework in Physics and I'm ready to start studying Embryology... but I guess I'm taking a nap first. I'm really sleepy. Haaay... I think rainy days cause people to get sleepy and passive. It's not that I hate the rain, but usually, when the rain pours, I tend to get sad or silent.
I'm really really really tired. I'm tired of thinking about the things I must do tonight... tomorrow... I just wish I would be given ONE whole day to relax, enjoy... be the happiest and most positive person in the whole world... (atik atik lang) Tsk tsk... I feel like a haggard corpse bride again. I thought I have moved on but I was wrong.... heheh... ganyan talaga sa buhay.

Vat va Vell... hehe. ;)

---I feel like a pretty lady with my nails in bloody red.


Nemia... you know I love you... Nemia you're the queen of my heart... Loving you is like food to my soul...
Hahahaha... atik lang.
-----I miss Tweety... It feels like we haven't met for years... I really miss her. ;(
----Tomorrow's a big day not only for Kay but also for us. We have a big part on that special day and so, GOOD LUCK TOTALLY SPIES!!! HAPPY 18th BDAY KAY!!! ;*

Spider-SENSE...

*The ratatouille is now... dEAD.

*Flu... go away.

*Shreng, I almost lost my cellphone, which almost became a life changing experience for me! Fortunately, at some point I still have the luck, Rachelle found it in their car. Sus na lang, if it were lost, I don't know what my parents would tell me... or my Kuya Mark. Tsk tsk.

*School keeps on surprising me a lot. We were already preparing ourselves for the TAXO long test and then, we'd just see the teacher writing one question on her acetate and another question on the white board and... yun na yun! Ibigsabihin, she might have forgotten about the long test, and it's not really a good news especially when you got worried and you gave all your efforts to study for it. Haaay... Her second question pa naman was giving a scientific name for a frog in Mt. Apo. Man, she read my own scientific name and I found her laughing about it! Rana apobundocus... what's wrong with that... ganda naman ah... ;)

*I lost my bestfriend's invitation. I'm sorry...

*I really did something wrong tonight... I fell asleep... at the wrong time. Nagym pa man ako sana tapos bigla na lang akong naKNOCK OUT!? Sorry... May tanong tuloy ako, sino kaya ang nag-off ng comps habang tulog ako... tsk tsk... delikado...

*My shoe looks bad...

Last touch:
*Lesson for today? I mean for yesterday... 2:10 na chong. Always be sensitive. Be sensitive enough... to yourself, others, your valuable possessions, or even to the whole world!

K

Happy Birthday KAY!
"Kay that you love me...
And show me that you care...
Kay when I need you...
YOu will always be there.."

I love this lady. She's really very smart and talented... FERPECT! Heheheh... I wish you all the most wonderful and magical things in life... di ko alam ano yun... SO eto lang masasabi ko Kay, GO! GO! GO!

Hulaan nyo anong oras na dito samin.. 3:18... am. Oras na para mag stadi!!! Galing noh? Walang alarm clock yan ha. Kung kelan wala, saka naman ako nagising ng maaga.... VERY TRICKY...

It takes time.... ;)

It's ten o'clock... aalis ako pag eleven... tingnan natin kung hanggang saan hahantong ang mga sinasabi ko...

Before anything else, mag guessing game tayo. Nakaharap ako sa computer nun nang may marinig akong parang may gumagalaw malapit sa computer table. Tiningnan ko kung asan, nang may nakita akong maitim na nilalang na tumatalon sa trash can! Gusto nyang makaakyat pero di nya maabot, di ko rin siya pwedeng hawakan. Di ko rin siya pwedeng palayain mula sa trash can, dahil magugunaw ang aking mundo... Guess who?

I realized that the things that you really expect to happen don't really happen. Yup, this idea is tested and proven. I already made myself believe that I won't be accepted in Kalasag, I knew I really didn't do good during the interview... but not until they texted me that I am already a Kalasag member and that I'm about to join the meeting the next day. Whew... Yesterday, Rani and I went to school early to finish our lab report. I was tired and we were both hungry. Ang aga ata namin noh para matapos lang yun... and then, by the time we were to pass the report, they told us that it was to be submitted the next meeting... oy..oy..oy... naloko ata kami ah...I crammed for my Filipino Report, nagmadali akong makagawa ng visual aid, paulit ulit na practice sa mga sasabihin... and then, while my heart was beating fast, the teacher announced that the group reporting would be moved the next meeting na rin because there's one lesson that she had to tackle! oy...oy...oy... naloko na naman ako... tsk tsk. but yesterday's tricky moments (tama ba yun) continued this morning, when we were hurrying to finish our lab reports in taxonomy kasi may LONG TEST pa daw! So we had to use all our resources para matapos lang. Then we started studying after having finished the write-up and the drawing for our next experiment (?). At the end of the lab class, we were told that next meeting na lang ung lab report. OY OY OY... tsk tsk! And so we studied, tapos during our taxo lecture, the teacher told us that she didn't prepare the long test... OY OY OY. Sus na lang...You know that feeling of being soooooo worried and then you'd begin panicking and cramming and tired and restless... and then in then end, iyon pala for some reason, there's nothing to worry about. PALAW... OY... oY... OY...
After knowing that NCX ran out of protractors, I decided to go to NCCC mall. It was raining and we had to cross along the pedestrian lane of Acacia. We found this little boy who was carrying umbrella. He told us that we can use his umbrella for two pesos. It seemed that we did need the umbrella so I told the boy, "Sige payungi na mi kay bayaran taka ug singko." He carries the big umbrella and then after a few minutes, he said, "Kamo gunit sa payong kay dili ko kaabot (taas kaayo)" Maybe the two pesos is for the umbrella only, without the labor. "Dapat ikaw ang magdala kay singko gud akong bayad," I replied.... medyo no comment afterwards.. Anyway, I liked the style of that boy... madiskarteng bata. Batang bata pa may hanapbuhay na, magpahiram lang ng umbrella may pera na kaagad. Shreng.. Thinking of hurrying up kasi gabi na, I thought of riding the MATINA jeepney. Jess didn't say anything about the route or the time it would take before we get to the mall. Tsk tsk... The jeepney was small pero bongga dahil coke ang design ng jeep nya... So, we were riding that jeepney and I realized MATINA jeepney had a different route compared with MAA jeepney.... but what's really more confusing was that we were getting to places that are not so familiar... and to think, his jeepney was filled with passengers, why would the driver bring us to different places? Parang napasok kami sa isang liblib na lugar and time was running, malapit na magclose ang nccc mall. Shreng. Saan ba kami dinadala ng driver na to. JOYRIDE? Then he stopped at a gate or something, o diba parang sindikato. He went down the jeepney. I wondered what were in the minds of the passengers about this stressful moment of not knowing what this driver really is up to. Shreng man ni na driver oy. He went back and he said something about his wife... I don't know if I'm right... and then scratched his head. Intawon, nobody knew that this driver got his personal plans and it seemed he wanted to share it to his passengers. We got to nccc mall and the department store was already closed. Shreng. Umuwi na lang kami...This only shows that wrong decisions makes things go wrong, pag pumunta kayo ng nccc, mag MAA jeepney na lang kayo... O diba... it's 10:52 pm na... so that's how my night became... became... I don't know.
Anyway... wishy wishy wishy wishy wish wish wish! My mom's wish has finally come true and I could see how happy she is right now... Love you mom! ;)

So it's time to leave now, 11:00 pm. Blogging and researching at the same time is not that easy.. It's 11:01 already... time to say goodbye...
Did you play the guessing game?
The answer is....
bukas na lang.

DO I DO..

i have so many things to do tonight... i mean to...day? It's about 1:05 in the morning and I haven't accomplished anything yet.

1. embryology write-up
2. embryology recitation
3. Filipino Report
4. Filipino Visual Aid
5. Literature-story

Five looks many...

My body really hurt after playing volleyball yesterday. Tossing the ball one meter away from your head forty times isn't very easy. The result of doing everything just to reach forty would be a painful back, painful arms, painful neck, painful shoulders, painful abs, hehehe.... painful hips, bruises and red spots.

Going back to doing the things I must do... This is a very difficult challenge for me. I feel so weak and then I am stuck with all those write-ups, recitations... etc. Haaaay.... But then, I do believe that God gives us challenges that we can pass through.... not pass by... but pass through. That's why, in times like this, just say... GO!GO!GO!---encouraging words from JP Abrina. I'm not really getting so worried because I also believe that someone will carry me anyway when I can't get up anymore... ;) Mmmmm... I also have good friends to share some laughs with, so all those worries would somehow lighten. Well...well... well... sometimes... it just has to be what it has to be...

Question question Portion:

I have a question.... Kung pagod na pagod ka, kung nag-iisa ka lang, tapos ang dami dami mo pang gagawin, ano ang dapat mong isipin?

Well I'm a Girl of Many Wishes....

Thursday.... Embryology...
Uwian na... and then I was talking to the people outside the classroom when I remembered that I had to get my embryology book in the locker. We were going to have an oral recitation the next day so I must get it. I didn't have the key so I had to run after Rani and JP from the seventh floor down to Roxas gate. They weren't there. They might have gone home. I went up stairs all the way to the fourth floor, and still, I found no one. I went all the way down, and I was starting to panic. I was tired and I was worrying. What should I do? I don't have my embryology book, how can I explain things for tomorrow? I got worried for several minutes. We got stuck in Roxas searching for solutions. If Rani and JP have gone home... then the only hope I had was Kay. She got the original key. My battery was empty, so I texted from a cellphone of a person I knew, which is somehow embarrassing. Fortunately, our classmate called Kay, and we found out that she's in Jacinto getting some photocopies. So we went there and I shouted Kay's name. KAAAAAAY! ANG SUSI! KUNIN KO ANG EMBRYO BOOK KO! May recitation pa naman bukas! Then, Kay answered, bakit ka man magstadi ng embryology na wala mang embryology bukas!.... I got stunned! FRIDAY NA MAN DIAY UGMA! WALA NGANG EMBRYOLOGY BUKAS! Tsk tsk! ... nakahilak ko...

Friday... sum"BAG"on nako si Marcis... Hay na lang.
It was during lit time. I was sitted near the door and I was looking outside. Someone was trying to talk to me from the outside. I couldn't get what he wanted but he was trying to act it out. I guessed it was a bag. He may have left his bag somewhere, because I really didn't get him, I asked Kamille and Marcus to attend to that person. Marcus looked for the bag and asked Jess to get one bag from the back. The guy outside said, wag na lang, then he left. It was too late when Marcus handed me the bag they found at the back. I took it and I went outside to see if I could still call the guy and give him what he was asking for. As I went outside, there was another guy who also went outside the classroom telling me... akoa na. I was stunned once again... SORRY... wrong number? Tsk tsk... I was just trying to help someone and now I'm realizing that I was taking away something from somebody's property. Marcus... tsk tsk.

Friday... Juice ko Day...
I bought juice (the ones in tetra pack). Then, later... when we were far far far from the store, I realized, I had no straw. Pano ao makakainom! Kinsa man gud nagbalot ba... walay straw.

Life is like a cartoon show... as I said... anything can happen!!!

Lately...

"Well, I’m a man of many wishes
Hope my premonition misses
But what I really feel my eyes won’t let me hide
cause they always start to cry
cause this time could mean goodbye"

My life has always been a cartoon show, where anything can happen. Something that goes like... "Nangyayari ba talaga yan sayo?"

To be continued... it's raining you know... hahaha...

I was so glad to have experienced some fulfilling moments today, although I really had a bad time dealing with our math test. Nakakain na rin ako ng totoong lunch sa wakas! I was also able to buy an embryology book with free CD! Meron kayo nun?! Even though I had my finger wounded, I was still active. I may had been sleepy with Mrs. Taxo with her droopy self, I was still in good spirit. We even went to Kay's clinic and I even ate big hotcakes in Mercorner... if I'm not mistaken. We had to go up up up to the seventh floor for Theology but I managed to ignore the pain. Sir Noriel was not in good mood with the noise we made, but... okey lang na... I went out of the room and I called Rani and JP from far far away, they ran. In my mind, they were to go home... but I tried to follow them several minutes after as I remembered my embryology book. Magstadi pa diay ko para sa recitation tomorrow. I had to get the key para sa locker. I went down through the helevator and I was sooooooo surprised...

bakit kaya? bukas na lang... inaantok na ako mga parts... oh diba, parang episode.

Pimple Attack!

I'm giving myself 5 minutes of expressing what I really feel right now...
There's nothing more exciting than having joyful pimples on your face! Hahahah... I just finished working with my assignments and I realized that I'm really having the what I call "PIMPLE ATTACK." Haaay... It's the season of abundance... harvest time... It may take a while before I get rid of these red happy spots, and the only way I know... is using BIOLEAF Amino Soap! Oh diba... parang commercial..
Oh well... five minutes na man siguro...
I really had a wonderful day today. Cool...
...Goodnight!

The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow...

Marcus: Anong palaman ang lumilipad?
Nemia: Butter... peanut?
Tss...Laki problema mo nemia...

I am soooooooooo exhausted. Ayoko na po... tsk tsk tsk. Maling sked, maling classroom, maling teacher... maling nemia. As early as now, I already feel like a corpse bride! When can I feel beautiful and truly happy again? atik lang. I'm still happy because I still got totally spies and friends...

Minsan oo minsan hindi...

The Adventure of Nemia and Self

I'm wishing... ;) Her voice is a little scary...Nagulat ako sa prince... sumingit bigla... "todaaaay" ka diha...

Monday... I woke up at about 11:00 am for the last time. Yes, this will be the last I would wake up late... I'm going to school starting tomorrow. Excited ka na ba? Anyway, as I went downstairs, everyone were very busy. They're busy in the kitchen, busy packaging our soap products, busy playing the drums, busy talking, busy walking, busy busying... heheh... they sure were working fast....and as for me, my world was in slowmotion-- I just got up from my magical bed you know. Later, I brought tweety home to bathe her. She was very dirty...Then, I ate lunch with my dad and my brothers. Ulam namin? It's the never-ending gulay! I could still remember the gulay we had for dinner lastnight. Oh well, gulay has been a part of our everyday life. Without the precious gulay, I wouldn't have been this healthy and strong. Hahahah... I tell you, the last time I got sick-- I mean really really sick-- was last year, which means my immune system had been really strong.... STRONG PARE! mayabang.
Later, I went to SM to buy myself a new pair of shoes and to make my brother's simple wish come true. Kuya Mark who's a music teacher, asked me to buy him the school requirements he needed. I rode a taxi to SM. Yes yes yes! nagtataxi na ako!!! Manong driver was a little sick... he was coughing. While we were near the kanto of TULIP drive... He said something... "Nagstop ang gago..." Tsk tsk. Kaya ka inuubo nong eh! But wow, sosyal na driver to... he speaks english ha. He was kind, instead of giving me 47 as my change, he gave me 50. Hahaha... salamat sa tres nong. And so, I went directly to the ladies' shoes section and wow... I couldn't see any good shoe, not until I got to Mario d' Boro where I found one. In the end, I was able to buy two pairs.... hihi...mahirap nang mageksplika... so it was time for my brother's wish-ko-lang but I felt the magical feeling of hunger. Before I went to McDo, I met Carlo. The cutie boy wasn't really surprised to see me, I thought he'd say, HOOOY NEMIA!... but it seemed like nagsawa na siya sa aking face. Hehehe...Okey lang yan Cutie Boy. ANDUN SA MAY ICE CREAM SI UMBRAYDA... that's what he told me. I asked him who UMBRAYDA was and it was MAYA pala. Unfortunately, I didn't find Maya. Sige lang.. Magkikita din yan kami bukas. So I ate at McDo and it was then that I realized I am, once again, a loner. Someone told me before that I'm a loner as I was playing daytona and dancefreaks in timezone all by myself. Oonga... I really was... ALL BY MYSELF... DON'T WANNA LIVE BY MYSELF BY MYSELF ANYMORE!!!!
Hot fudge, McDO ran out of sundaes... sundae's... sundaesss.. Sayang... It's been a long time since I last tasted their hot fudge. I was lucky to get a table for myself. Daming tao... Although I felt the loneliness... hahha... I had fun with their shrek's royal... something, where they got games like multiple choice, spot the difference, and the puzzle where you find the missing words (anong tawag nyan) for those who feel lonely and bored. And so, finally, I went to National Book Store for my brother's wish. There were so many moms and dads and kids and teenagers... I had quite a hard time looking for Kuya's requirements.. from the stapler to the blackboard eraser to the shool register... what's a school register? tsk tsk. But at least, I was able to buy everything he needed. I carried three bags with the cartolina and the rolled plastic cover. Wow... my hand was really shaking... I looked like a mom carrying my children's school supplies. Sige lang... at least I rode a taxi home. Hahahah... The driver almost brought me to the wrong village or subdivision. He was saying something earlier, but it wasn't clear. He said something that ends with... _____YO... and then I said, HA? But he never replied, I was hurt. Hahahah. Kaya pala... he thought of another village... parang EL RIO... other than my DINAVILLE. Chong, DINAVILLE FOREVER yata ito! And so, I got home with a little headache. Oh diba... and that's how Nemia and myself had a magical adventure... binuang...
... now it's time to prepare for school... and I'm about to start preparing right at this very moment. So... so long... farewell... I hate to say goodbye... ;)

hooooooooooooooooooh....

"When you feel soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo angry... I mean... really really really mad, or if you feel sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo upset.... all you have to do is---------------------- -TAKE A BATH."

EnRollmEnT DaY ;)

Yesterday was our enrollment. I was so excited, but my excitement turned into almost like a heart attack when I met four men beating one poor guy near the kanto. What makes it scary was that our tricycle parked in the very kanto of the subdivision, which was so near the fighting scene. Fortunately, my brother was there and he knew what to do. If I was alone, something wrong might have happened to me. So we went far from the area and we waited until everything cooled down.
That was my first time to encounter such, and never would I want to see another one again. I saw blood. I heard the guy being beaten up shouting. He was helpless but he had to defend himself or else... tsk tsk. I saw how people were alarmed. The barangay people were hurrying to run after those bad guys. I saw one who was carrying a gun. One man came back with a bolo. I saw the policemen coming. I couldn't believe that I am actually seeing an actual scenario of a crime scene, I should say. My heart was beating fast and I was really scared. Haaay... I thought I could stand seeing people hurting each other, I mean, I watch WWE and UFC with my brothers. In UFC, it's real fighting, the fighters get wounded, injured... etc, but it's different pala when it's real. haaay ulit... I hope the authorities have already settled what has to be settled.
Moving on... we got to school early. Enrolling yourself is like an amazing race. You have to be patient and you have to be alert as well. If this was really an amazing race, I would have lost. Getting the grades might be the easiest part. Hahah. I filled up that course-title-code number-room-schedule-paper ( di ko alam anong tawag dun) and I had quite a hard time doing it as I did it twice. When we finally got to the cashier, who might be so stressed out as she wasn't really nice to us, we were told to go back and get the paper we were holding signed. DIVISION CHAIRPERSON, DIVISION CHAIRPERSON... sus na lang. Then, we had to wait for hours for that. We were glad that the cashier,who wasn't that nice, was considerate enough. We were able to pay as soon as we got that paper signed. Lastly, we went to the mini-auditorium to have our ID's validated.

To be continued... kain muna ako.
And so after sleeping this afternoon, here I am to continue yesterday's adventure.

We went to the mall then to Marcus' house then to Banok's then to Rani's house. Mall was good, Marcus' place was better, Banok's...mmmm... no comment, and Rani's home... is the best!!! We met Nico.... I forgot this boy's last name... but he's the master of something. hahahah...We thought he'd hit us with his super stick. I got home a little late which caused my mom to get a little upset. SORRY...
Anyway... although I really didn't get to talk about the details of my adventure with my friends yesterday, I'm glad that TOTALLY SPIES were together again. Hahaha. Also, I got to meet my classmates. Haaaay....

Let me end this post which took me almost a day to finish... by greeting the super peeps:
Kay- You're a super girl already! Congratulations for finally being sure of your true identity! Stay beautiful inday!
JP- Hay day! The dancing diva!!! See you on Tuesday. Hindi ko pala alam ang schedule natin ba. It's lost, di ko na mahanap.Hahahah. Binuang.
Rani- Sis! Sana sabay sabay tayo sa Tuesday punta sa classroom. Wala akong kaalam alam kung anong oras at san pupunta. Hahahah. Sige day! Ingat! Mwah!
Maya- " ;* "
Jess- Nakauwi ka ba ng maayos?

MMMM... It's time to say goodbye. Nothing really happened today. Although I woke up a little early, I slept the whole afternoon. tsk tsk... but I thought the day is beautiful. I could feel it!!!! ;)
Tama pala... I think tonight is the last episode of Asian Treasures... feeling ko maganda. ;)

sunny SIDE up

I got to teach kids this morning which is somehow an accomplishment for me. Although there were only few of them but it's still fun to find out what's in the minds of these kids. My lesson was about God's plans for our lives, they really didn't get what I really wanted to say. It's hard to explain things to kids because sometimes you think they're listening and they're really looking at you but you'll just realize they were thinking of clay, colors, toys... etc. Hahah.. Sometimes they get busy with the things they find inside the classroom like the pushcarts, which they call "broom-broom". I really don't want those pushcarts to be around, but that room was a storage room which we turned into a classroom, so they push and push while I'm storytelling. Mmmm... Kids get busy too you know. But then, a teacher has to be patient. It's for God anyway. :)
I asked a 3-year-old girl what she wanted to become when she grows up. Hmmmm.... She's just three years old, why would I ask that? But she gave me the answer, and that is to become a.... banana. Hahahah... SAGING. I asked her why and she replied:"daghan man saging sa among balay." Heheh... Let's just say, she's inspired with her surroundings... See? It's fun talking to kids. They look at life in a simple way. They say simple things, want simple things, love simple things... etc. etc. I gave her a chocolate and at the end when it was time to go home, she was calling me, "Teacher, teacher!" Then she said, "... Thank you..." Aaaah... ;)

*Life has a lot of sides...
And so, this is one side of my life. Nagiging madrama na ako.. yaks... and yes, I myself never imagined becoming a sunday school teacher one day, and yet, it's amazing to know that I did become one now. I'm happy to have this side. It makes me close to God and it makes me close to kids. I love this side! It's one of the most wonderful sides I have... ;)
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Nganong komplikado man kaayo... intawon...

Get things Right

All this time...

It's June already, and I didn't do anything meaningful or wonderful this summer. Haaay... it looks like I've just wasted two months of being seventeen.... and I feel so sorry... Maybe this guilt feeling of doing nothing would push me to do something constructive this week .
What makes me feel more guilty is that I also wake up late on Sundays... and it's been a month since the last time I taught the kids in sunday school, and so because there's no teacher, then there would be no class as well. Yes, this isn't my job, I am not bound to do something like this, but maybe it's the thought htat my life became more wonderful when I started teaching children. I have been very enthusiastic and positive in everything I do... at home or in school. That is why, starting tomorrow, which is SUNDAY, I have to get things right.

To be continued...

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12:43 na daw sabi sa computer! hay, ganito na talaga ang buhay ko dito, gising pa ako kahit sobra 12 na.... di muna ako mag-eenglish, kasi feeling ko ha mga chong, parang hindi ako marunong mag-english. simula nung second sem, na-fi-feel ko na ang aking kahinaan sa pagsasalita ng ENGLISH! kasi di ako marunong gumawa ng paragraph tsaka essay sa english 13... parang nawalan ako ng confidence sa sarili kasi nakakapressure! hoooh. TOINK! pero okey lang yan, ganyan talaga ang buhay. may mga chances na ganyan ang pakiramdam.
anyway... uy nag-english na... napaka-nakakagulat ang mga events ngayong araw na ito. nakakapagpabagabag!
first, una, si tweety napilayan. Tumatakbo na lang siya gamit ang dalawang kamay at isang paa. Isipin nyo kaya un! Walang nakakaalam kung ano ang dahilan kung bakit siya nagkaganon, pero ako, may naiisip ako na suspek! hindi ko lang alam kung tama ang hula ko... mmmmm.... pero sa kabila ng kalagayan ni tweet tweet... I feel that she's happy. Parang okey lang na ganun siya kasi walang difference ang energy nya dati at ngayon. Amazing na aso to! Dream, believe, survive! Pero at least, positive thinker siya, laging may pag-asa!
Ung pangalawa naman, napaso ako ng plantsa! Iyon sana ang moment ko para mamalantsa, kasi paminsan minsan lang ako gumagawa nun. Nang tinawag ako ni nanay, ayun, naplantsa ko pati kamay ko. Medyo dahil sa katangahan nga lang talaga iyon pero pare! ang hapdi!!! pero nakakapagtataka, ngayon, di ko na masyadong feel na masakit, di gaya nung bata pa ako, parang mga ilang araw din un na sakit at pagdurusa, nilalagyan pa nga ng colgate eh. hahaha....
Pangatlo, eto, ibang level talaga to! LIFE CHANGING EXPERIENCE TO... para sakin. Pagdating namin sa bahay, nagulat kami kasi nagkanda-sugat sugat si Kuya Ron! At hindi siya mukhang minor wound! naaksidente siya sa motorcycle, kasi itong Dinaville, medyo delikadong lugar ito para sa mga nagba-bike, nagmo-motor, kahit sa mga sasakyan... lalo na sa slopes. ayun, klarong klaro ang pagkakaaksidente nya, at ang motorcycle... deds din! tsktsk... pero kung iisipin, minor wounds lang nga kasi di naman kelangang tahiin... eeeew... pero fresh na fresh ah... eeeew... buti na lang, di siya nabagok o nabalian ng buto. tsktsk. LIFE CHANGING EXPERIENCE TO para sakin mga chong, kasi iniisip ko, kahit magkaaway kami ng kapatid kong to, kahit papano... di pa rin ako papayag na may mangyaring masama sa kanya. I still care for him... masakit pala sa heart mga chong pag may masamang nangyari sa kapatid mo kahit parang galit na galit ka na sa kanya sa dami ng kasalanan nya sayo. haaaay.... I'm very thankful that he's fine. Tsk tsk.
So what did I realize today? Mmmmm.... Siguro, totoo nga talaga na meron tayong angels na katabi everyday. Kasi we're still safe kahit papano. We still feel secured sa kabila ng maraming dangers sa world... di lang sa pagkapilay, sa plantsa, or sa motorcycle... pati sa pagdating ng mga unfortunate events natin sa buhay, we're still able to go through, as long as we have faith... we are always certain that we're still safe, we can still take risks... even though we get hurt, we're still okay... and we can still show the world the best smile! :) pero always be careful... ingat lagi.
so! hanggang diyan na muna tayo mga inday mga dong! hahahah... HAAAAAH (yawn)... medyo inaantok na rin ako. dapat maaga akong magising bukas... dahil... wala lang. GUD MORNING! and I love you all! 1:19 na....

Sunny day Sunday...

*Every Sunday, I tend to be quiet.... drama effects...
*I just realized that I did something sinful, and I pray that God would forgive me for that. I also pray that God will continue to guide me in whatever path I take. Lastly, I pray for happiness and peace.... I know God knows what's in my heart. I trust Him.
*Last night was Mara's debut and I'd like to thank her again for making me a part of that special night. She really was shining and sparkling... heheh... I was one of her eighteen candles, and being one of her candles was quite a challenging task. With high heels, I had to walk a long way to get to the microphone and I was nervous and shaking. hahah... Oh well, I'm thankful I did fine.... no accidents... Hahaha... I just got a little disturbed when the emcee called me "Nimya" instead of a lighter softer "Nemya." Ngek...
But I really want to thank Mara for remembering. She was one of my good friends back in my first and second years in highschool. I could say she had always been a good person... always responsible, determined... and helpful... She really deserves such a wonderful night like that.
*Onaiza,best girl... hahahah...and Superfriend JP were also there. We had fun strolling around the big area. We went to the beach, and it was a long walk and my feet really hurt, but it's okay, at least, somehow, I could say that I went to the beach this summer. Heheh...

*MILO....last night was the last...
*Dance... as if it's the last night of the world... yeah...
SUNNY DAY SUNDAY SAYING (parang tongue twister): ALWAYS HAVE FAITH...

Finding Nem...o

My title really has no connection with the things I'm going to say... tsk tsk.
Anyway, I want to start with a wonderful introduction.



I love the way she says her lines in this commercial; there's something interesting about how she delivers the lines: "hindi ako natakot, hindi umurong, di nawalan ng boses, KAHIT ANO PA, KAHIT SAAN PA....." I find myself imitating her especially the KAHIT ANO PA, KAHIT SAAN PA... part. Hahahaha... ginagaya ko talaga chong... ADIK? And somehow, I might use these lines one day... ahahaha... if someone would ask, "Pano mo nalampasan ang mga problemang iyon?"... I'll just say... "Me? Oh...hindi ako natakot, hindi umurong, hindi nawalan ng boses, kahit ano pa, kahit saan pa... I HAVE A HAPPY SMILE. :) " Oh diba... charing.. paulit ulit lang sinabi ko para mahaba... tsk tsk.

MILO EVERYDAY... I love MILO. MILO makes me feel so light... It's the energy drink every kid should have. DRINK DRINK DRINK!

I woke up at 12 pm... again... just like yesterday, and the day before yesterday and the day before the day before yesterday and so on... I don't know, I sleep at past twelve then I wake up at twelve. I'm having a very unhealthy habit pare!!! Tsk tsk. Di ko na na-eenjoy ang kalahati ng araw ko. oh noooooooooooo...

FLU... HEADACHE... what else? Yeah... I feel so weak right now. I'm getting sick... which is not good because I am about to attend a party tomorrow. Yeah... party... and I don't have an invitation... haaay... then, I don't even know how to look good for that occasion.

SHREK...What if I was FIONA? hahahaha... oh no... I'm doomed!... oh well, as long as shrek is there... yaks. I want to watch this movie here in the house at night.... baka maging horror... hahahaha...

So this is what happens when you get stuck in the house for a long time... You get amazed with TV commercials, wake up sooooo late, get drunk with MILO, have flu or headache, or both, and think about shrek, ... hehehe... I really don't have any good things to talk about... but I'm happy because, not long enough, I'll be back in school again. SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL!

I forgot... may importante pala akong misyon... MAGPA-LOAD!
SIGE GUyS! HAVE FUN!

chisburgar...

Ako ay may lobo... lumipad sa langit... di ko na makita... pumutok na pala! Hahaha... What if I were a balloon? Haaaay... ayokong pumutok... ngek.
Happy birthday in advance ulit KAMILLE! HOoooH... Salamat ha!

S-U-R-P-R-I-S-E!!! Life does have a lot of surprises... Tsk tsk.. tested and proven.

Happy Mother's Day! I love you MOM!!! Mwah mwah mwah!

Lalalalala.... la lang...

I'm really dancing right now.... I'm starting to like listening to Stevie Wonder's songs. After being struck with his "overjoyed" and addicted to his "You are the Sunshine of My Life"
hoooh! yeah... here comes knocks me off my feet!



see? "there's something 'bout your love".... anyway my favorite part here is the "I don't wanna bore you with it... oh but I love you I love you I love you....." part. hahah... I like the voice of this guy... it knocks me off my feet!...his songs keep me dancing... hahah...

*Try and try until you cry...